i just turned 21 and i feel it

Look at the situation/ they got me facin/I can't live a normal life,/ I was raised by the street/So I gotta be down with the hood team/Too much television watchin/ got me chasin dreams/I'm a educated fool/ with money on my mind/Got my ten in my hand/ and a gleam in my eye/
-coolio

Basically the hardest part about becoming aware is self analyst. Looking in the mirror and basing your faults on the expectations of others while denying the actual faults of your character forces you to be a bit actor in your own story. Then when you realize that it is your life hasn't been worth shit and you have been acting like a child in a man's body. that makes maturity all the more bitter to swallow.

so i write this update with the honest motivation of finally getting my shit together.